MY
CAREER LIFELINE:
(Focus
on what’s left not on what’s lost)
“I
have been searching for the real significance of the existence of human beings,
part of who am I and discovering why I am today?”
In
barriotic lingo, I need You, you need me. In philosophical aspect, were
composed of body, soul and spirit that needs sense of oneness and do what you
think is right. In psychological term, we started the Eclectic Approach---a
combination of purposeful living and reinforcement beyond the set norms and
limits. Educational setting particularly sciences, came up with describing
human in anatomical variances which agreed physiological explanation that
viewed as completion of vital parts and that would presented man or a woman.
Thus, spiritual teaching includes all and whichever not mention! That even a
complicated question that man can’t answer has there to enlighten.
A broad topic may incur to elucidate
part of my characteristics, attitudes, traits or generally, my personality.
However, as always tested and what’s noticeable in me being a Perfect
Melancholy.
Desire…Always
Have it Right
Emotional
Needs…
Sense of Stability, space, silence and support
Key
Strengths…Ability
to organize. Set long range goals, have high standards and ideals, analyzes
deeply
Key
Weaknesses…Easily
depressed, too much time on preparation, too focused on details, remembers
negatives, suspicious to others
Gets
depressed when…Life
is out of order, standards aren't met, and no one seems to care
Afraid
of…No
one understands how I really feel, making mistakes, having to compromise
standards
Likes
people who…Listen
and laugh, praise and approve
Dislikes
people who…Are
lightweights, forgetful, late, disorganized, superficial, prevaricating and
unpredictable
Are
valuable in work…For
having sense of details, love of analysis, follow thoroughly, high standards of
performance, compassion for the hurting
Could
improve if…I
didn't take life so seriously and didn't insist on others to be perfectionist
As
leader…Organize
well, are sensitive to people's feelings, have deep creativity, want
qualitative performance
Tends
to marry…Popular
Saguines for their personalities and social skills, but soon try to shut them
up and get them on a schedule, becoming depressed when they don't respond
Reaction
to stress…Easily
withdrawn gets lost in a book, become depressed, give up, and recount the
problems
Recognized
by…Serious,
sensitive nature, well-mannered approach, self-depreciating comments,
meticulous and well-groomed looks (except for hippy-type intellectuals, musicians,
poets, who feel attention to clothes looks worldly and detract from their inner
strengths
(Source:
Personalities in Power, published by Huntington House, Inc.)
After
categorically identified some of it, it ends up agreeing listed above. Loving
myself, this is to sum up my vicarious experiences, people who surround me and
my decisions which I made through my life. I am because of YOU.
I am glad
because I was born and given a chance to experience the contemptuous of life
from million choices of God; that I feel the fatalities, the down moments,
having shortcomings and started to question life. Then, these taught me to win
battles, to stand up with no turning back, to fill up the emptiness and
exploring answers that no one could ever give enough on me. In too much
excitement, sometimes places me out of control…to my words, in my mind and with
my actions.
I am proud
having a family who raised me. Though, having a father as strict disciplinarian
(military) and a mother (housewife/ businesswoman) with mild tedious emotion
still, I never envy others. I sought approval but learned to appreciates life;
I feared to be criticized that earned an innate sense of responsibility. I have
a domineering brother (military, too) which nevertheless, submissive and
supportive if in need. Thankfully, I find out that I must also do my part and
made me to delegate authority that imparted the correct judgment. Lastly, to
have sisters (graduated from Bible school, currently enrolled in Education and
one is a 3rd yr HS) with both personalities has calming influences,
optimists and humorous motives. Having these all gets me to mediate between
contentious people and objectively solve flaws in congruent to the person’s
disposition. Without me in them, is also their incompleteness as mine.
I am
delighted with my friends for making me alone most the time. Truly, I became
independent and seeing myself working constantly. On my own, I can boastfully
carry out sensible conversation with new people I have met. More often of being
autocratic, I realized to maintain it that I was unintentionally used by them.
Knowing their reasons then, I allow it to happen for a cause that in time of
any needs they can be a help on me.
I praise
God being King in my sole life. Though, you not need me but I barely need YOU.
Sacredly, YOU made me one with my three persona. YOU showed that everything has
a definite purpose and giving us chances with my failing choice. But as YOU
direct us and I usually depart from it, YOU are there to straighten the path
but implying a reward and punishment. And all my plans started here; my family
and relatives were Born Again Christians and Missionaries that usually founded
churches in many places here and abroad. So, before I wanted to be one of them.
I lost my
motivations and achievements when others cheered by their parents. The focus
from my childhood dreams and aspirations were vanished when I feel no one care and
support me. During my elementary years, I always imagine myself wearing a white
robe, stethoscope on my ears and nurses at my back which is define as a Doctor
in Medicine. In that time, I just want to pay debt the attentions’ which my
parents partly gave. Then, I excel in most science subjects.
My sense
of loving deeply a person was gone when everyone tried to fool me despite my
sincerity. The vocation being a doctor shifted from lawyer; I wanted to have it
right and made all things in legal process (I just thought, it can). I wished
that I have fought for my love and times that was lost. My teacher told me that
being a lawyer should be tough and with good communication skills. Then, I
became expert in intrapersonal ability, developing my people management skills.
I decided
to turn away from my friends when they betrayed me even I gave my full loyalty
during high school days. I thought being a Pilot or going abroad will escape
from the reality that I was hurt. But I understood that even I can see great
creation along the journey, it was already marked in my life. Still, I joined
the Cadet Training Officer and got the Star Medal for being a good leader and
role model. I indulged also in different academic competitions which
represented our school in far places in Pampanga. These made me busy and think
about that life is a battle ground and not a playground, anymore.
My parents
wanted me to study at Manila
as much as I want. But my future was vaguely I perceived. Due to the influences
of society, I chose to take up Nursing at UP Manila but I only passed at UP Los Baños and
in limited courses to offer. My parents wanted me to be Dentist so we went to
CEU and luckily I even passed their rate for scholarship. However, they early
realized that I might stop in the middle of my schooling for financial support
although I am also scholarship grantee at DND-PASUC-CHED. And later (February
on my 4th yr HS) I imagined to continue my childhood dream; so I
entered PUP to take up pre-medical course which is BS Clinical Psychology. I
just thought it was a good decision now.
During my
college years, I’m so skeptical if all what I’m doing is worth because my
father told me that Medical
School will not be
prioritized (my sister, next to me will also be in college level). I got
frustrated but finished my course with flying colors. Quoted from Dr. Roxel
Apruebo, my mentor (1st ever-writer of Sports Psychology book in the
country): “kung gusto mo ang course mo at ayaw sa’yo, you’ll not be successful
pero kung ayaw mo ang course mo at gusto ka naman niya, wala kang magagawa but
to excel.” Which Dr. Serafina Maxino (Chief Clinical Psychologist, UERMMMC) attested
me and belong to top 5 choices in graduating batch of our department to bestow
our OJT at clinic. And that time, there still so many things I’d love to do
like being a writer, so I pioneer official publication of College of Arts and
read various books; to speak multi-languages, so I enrolled in Korean and
Japanese training centers; and, an accountant because I hate math and
frustrated to shine in this area!
To
challenge myself during 4th year college, without knowing by my
parents, I worked in Philhealth as Data Encoder, soon a Proofreader within six
months span. Really, after this, I inserted on my mind the phrase of, “one-at-a-time-basis”.
Good jobs
and opportunities disappeared in my path as my perseverance just went astray. I
graduated at age 20 and I can’t admit that I belong to the young professionals
at Makati in
the field of Psychology. I was hired as HR Specialist in Asia Trust Bank (Main) but filed my resignation after two weeks. Same
thing happened at Cocolife (Main) but as HR
Recruitment. I literally walked through the buildings at Ayala to submit my
resume. Suddenly, most of them called me back for the interviews; I haven’t
attended any of it. One building caught my attention, AXA Philippines which is
beside RCBC Tower. While seeing it, I learn to love
the place and owned the position there. I was immediately employed as HR
Generalist thinking I’ll be better soon. Consequently, I can’t help but not to
be happy on my job and approached my supervisor. She believed I have guts to
show up since I got the results of above average (nearing almost excellent) in
the battery tests for their employment at a rank-and-file status. However, they
can only offer a pioneering project at AXA Phil, 1st ever in Asia---
Direct Marketing Support Assistant. The only disadvantage they know that
company will just try if revenues will reach the high target and contribute to
the benchmark. I never think twice but doubted with my capabilities because it is
far from the nature of my course. Surprisingly, I was awarded to be regularized
in three (3) months of my tenure in the company.
Being the
youngest in the company, they told me I must stay. But my feet say, I have more
steps to go wherein I can grow better and explore the unexplored. One good
friend of mine concluded I have a gift from Him, “bakit kahit anung pasukan
mong trabaho, nakukuha ka?” However, that time I seek the usual things at my
age; having dates, going to bars, shops and take everything as easy. I decided
that I should earn better to sustain my necessities. I applied at Star Cruises
at Magsaysay Training Center
as Cabin Steward and fortunately passed the requirements then, undergone
trainings. I thought that it was a good choice because little by little, I am
also realizing my High School plans. At the back of mind, human only needs
money to be satisfied in life.
With all things packed (already
resigned at AXA Phil last January 23) and five (5) days before our flight, the
management told that the six cruises were sold due to global crisis. Who will
not be depressed if you know that we’ll resume by August? I’m thinking I should
not have a vacant day and be busy while waiting for that time. After that day, I was hired as Casino Dealer.
I will work as a pioneer staff for the grand opening of Maxim’s Hotel in front
of NAIA Terminal 3, Pasay
City. The training was
3pm to 11pm and a lot of mind-computations. I always tell I hate math but excel
again being on the top 10 among hundreds of trainees from different
participating provinces. And during those times I have to attend part-time jobs
at Ateneo de Manila University (AdMU) as a script writer, stage manager and
project coordinator from different events in media and global-based companies.
In my
religious belief, it is perfectly wrong but I still pursue to finished the
training last March. Then, it also decreased to organize events handled by AdMU.
So, I texted my friend for their job openings and was blessed to work as
Research Analyst- Voting Operation Staff last April. As the days nearing, the
decision must be made whether I will accept the Cabin Steward or Casino Dealer,
both a high paying jobs. I got confused and sought now the advices to my parents---
I turned down both.
I talked to my sister room and
remembered that she approach by Mrs. Capa, if she knew one who’s graduate in
psychology. I applied and then finally accepted the offer but still don’t know
why. Before all the work experiences I have mentioned, I am thinking already
what specialization I should take after I graduated: SpEd, Child or Clinical
Psychology? I just realized now that MA Guidance and Counseling is the best for
professional growth in the field I have chosen. This is also an influenced from
Dr. Evangeline De Jesus, one of my professors, who pushed to the Senate’s approval
in licensing the Guidance and Counseling profession.
At some
point in my life, my soul withdraws from the peak of serving Him. Nonetheless,
YOU are still there cuddling me all the way even I mostly feel I’m alone. I
realized that I must need to focus on YOU now in spite of all my losses…for YOU
are always there. I can appreciate that being religiously-inclined made affect
my decisions for best. Not as a missionary or a pastor but be a walking testimony
to others. I am definitely amazed with the people who identified their plans in
life at their early lives. And rare people are to discover the happiness in
their chosen field of expertise. It is by accepting and focusing on things what
was left on your part. I stopped questioning God and admit that failures are
part of reality in my life. I then prayed, “if you’re my Father, bless me and
experience your prosperity”, and He did.
As I
reflected, there’s no one correct choice in career planning, it’s a
trial-and-error with no definite time of frame, too. And a career change has provided me the
challenges I craved for. I am surprised by now that money is not on the top of
my list when it comes to job satisfaction. Therefore, I am not being surprised
that if a career will bring higher earnings isn’t one particularly satisfying.
That said, if other reasons are leading to consider a career change, higher
earning should also be considered on choosing a career. We cannot deny the fact
that when our physical needs were met; we will go on to a higher level, taken
from Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs. Viewing all these facts, I am currently happy
with all the things came into my life and satisfied on what I have today--- but
will always foresee my future as bright.
Submitted by:
JAKESON GARZON
QUIATCHON
(MAGC
Student)
November 21, 2009
Submitted
to:
Dr. Edna Calma
(Professor in Career Guidance)
